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2003-05-04 @ 21:28
I guess I have to write some words again… Everything is just so fucking hard. I can’t do anything anymore. Everything is such a strain. I don’t eat anymore. Food makes me vomit. I hate it! Fuck food! I ate a bun today, because my mum forced me, but I throw it up afterwards. I just hate to have food in my tummy. It’s so disgusting, all this fattening, and nasty food. Yack!
Everyone comment my weight loss. “Look at u Nemi, u look so skinny now” even my best friend gave me a comment. “U should try to gain some weight Nemi. U look simply so unhealthy!” I hate my fucking life. I hate it!!!! Every night I cry, and wish I were dead. My whole life is so pointless!
Been at an 18th birthday-party this weekend. They forced me to eat a slice of pizza. I started to cry. I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t eat.
I’m so sorry to be such a coward, and to bother u guys with my problems.
Take care everyone!
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Today I feel:
I wanna have control
I wanna perfect body
I wanna perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
So fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
~Creep - Radiohead~
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